Babamlar her yaz oldu\u011fu gibi karde\u015fimi de alarak k\u00f6ye gitmi\u015fler, ben ise birka\u00e7 dersten b\u00fct\u00fcnleme s\u0131navlar\u0131m olmas\u0131 sebebiyle \u015fehirdeki evimizde yaln\u0131z kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Asl\u0131nda \u00fcniversiteyi kendi memleketinde ailesinin yan\u0131nda okuyan biri i\u00e7in iyi bir f\u0131rsat olmu\u015ftu benim i\u00e7in, rahat tak\u0131labilecektim. Ama i\u015fin k\u00f6t\u00fc taraf\u0131, hem sevgilim hem de bir \u00e7ok arkada\u015f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcnlemeleri olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in memleketlerine gitmi\u015f olduklar\u0131ndan g\u00fcnlerim \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 ge\u00e7iyordu…<\/p>\n
Bir sabah telefon sesine uyand\u0131m. Arayan annemdi,<\/p>\n
“O\u011flum, Hacer ablan\u0131n hastanede kontrolleri varm\u0131\u015f, sabah k\u00f6yden il\u00e7eye gitti, oradan da dokuz arabas\u0131na binip \u015fehre gelecek, onu kar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131ver. Bug\u00fcn muayeneye yeti\u015femez, bizde kal\u0131r. Kontrolleri tahlilleri falan uzarsa belki birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn daha kalabilir!” dedi.<\/p>\n
Ben de sabah okulda i\u015fim olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, onu hastaneye benim g\u00f6t\u00fcrebilece\u011fimi s\u00f6yledim.<\/p>\n
Hacer abla, babam\u0131n teyzesinin k\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131, 34-35 ya\u015flar\u0131ndayd\u0131, yani benden 12-13 ya\u015f b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fc. Babam\u0131n anne taraf\u0131n\u0131n bir\u00e7ok ferdi gibi uzun boylu, kilolu, sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n ve renkli g\u00f6zl\u00fcyd\u00fc. Kendi boyumun 1.80 olmas\u0131ndan k\u0131yaslayarak bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda boyu en az 1.75 olmal\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n
G\u00fczellikten ziyade sempatikli\u011fi ile \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131kan sade duru ve \u00e7o\u011funlukla g\u00fclen bir y\u00fcz\u00fc vard\u0131r. K\u00f6ye gitti\u011fim zamanlarda, ne\u015feli, kafa dengi ve bana kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ok candan tav\u0131rlar\u0131yla bir arada olmaktan en \u00e7ok ho\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131m akrabalar\u0131mdan biridir.<\/p>\n
Ayr\u0131ca kimse bilmez ama, iri g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri, kocaman yuvarlak kal\u00e7alar\u0131, dolgun bembeyaz bacaklar\u0131 ile benim \u00e7ocukluktan ergenli\u011fe ge\u00e7i\u015f d\u00f6nemimin sultan\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
O d\u00f6nemlerde ona hayran bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n fark\u0131na varmam\u0131\u015f olma ihtimali olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ve benimle yaln\u0131z kald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yer yer a\u00e7\u0131k se\u00e7ik esprilere kadar bile giden sohbetlerimizi s\u0131n\u0131rland\u0131rmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan dolay\u0131 da her hangi bir eyleme d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmemi\u015f olan bu ilgimden onun da ho\u015flanm\u0131\u015f olabilece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmd\u00fcr hep. Uzun zaman sonra bir araya gelece\u011fimiz i\u00e7in olduk\u00e7a sevin\u00e7liydim a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Saate bakt\u0131m, 10:00’a geliyordu. Hacer ablan\u0131n otob\u00fcs\u00fc 10:30 gibi terminalde olacakt\u0131. Hemen haz\u0131rlan\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m evden ve terminale gidip kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Uzun zamand\u0131r g\u00f6rm\u00fcyordum, sar\u0131ld\u0131k k\u0131saca hasret giderdik, bir taksiye atlay\u0131p eve geldik. Pard\u00fcsesini portmantoya ast\u0131, e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 da kalaca\u011f\u0131 misafir odas\u0131na koyduk ve mutfa\u011fa ge\u00e7ip oturduk.<\/p>\n
G\u00fcl kurusu bir e\u015farp ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f, ondan biraz daha koyu renk bir kazak ile bileklerine kadar uzanan siyah bir maksi etek giymi\u015fti. Mavi g\u00f6zleri, yuvarlak hatl\u0131 g\u00fcler y\u00fcz\u00fc ile her zamanki gibi \u00e7ok sempatik duruyordu kar\u015f\u0131mda…<\/p>\n
Hemen sohbete ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k, k\u00f6ydekileri, e\u015fini, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 falan sordum. O da daha \u00f6nce bir bayramda tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m k\u0131z arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131, derslerimin nas\u0131l gitti\u011fini falan sordu.<\/p>\n
Mutfa\u011f\u0131n da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k oldu\u011fu dikkatini \u00e7ekince, dur falan dememe kalmadan bula\u015f\u0131klara giri\u015fmi\u015f, iki dakikada mutfa\u011f\u0131 toplay\u0131p \u00e7ay suyunu koymu\u015ftu bile\u2026<\/p>\n
\u00c7aylar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 i\u00e7meye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, nas\u0131l olsa kimseler yok diyerek sigara da yakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 benimle birlikte. Eskileri yad ederek g\u00fcl\u00fcp e\u011flenmi\u015f, vaktin nas\u0131l ge\u00e7ti\u011fini fark etmemi\u015ftik. \u00d6\u011flen ve ak\u015fam\u0131 birle\u015ftirip yedik yeme\u011fimizi. Sonra onu da kald\u0131r\u0131p,<\/p>\n
“Hadi salona ge\u00e7elim.” dedim. Hacer abla,<\/p>\n
“Sen ge\u00e7, ben geliyorum…” diyerek odas\u0131na gitti. Bense salonda \u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc koltu\u011fa uzan\u0131p TV’yi a\u00e7t\u0131m, kanallar\u0131 kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bir s\u00fcre sonra Hacer abla \u00e7i\u00e7ekli pijamalar\u0131 ve elinde \u00e7ay tepsisi ile girdi i\u00e7eriye,<\/p>\n
“Yabanc\u0131 de\u011filsin nas\u0131l olsa, rahat\u00e7a oturay\u0131m dedim, \u00fczerimi de\u011fi\u015ftirdim!” dedi. Ben de g\u00fclerek,<\/p>\n
“Kafana g\u00f6re tak\u0131l abla, resmiyet mi var aram\u0131zda!” diye yan\u0131tlad\u0131m onu. \u00c7ay\u0131m\u0131 verirken e\u011fildi\u011finde g\u00f6z\u00fcm ili\u015fmi\u015f iri g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcslerinin bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm pijamas\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inden, s\u00fctyenini de \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Kar\u015f\u0131mdaki ikili koltu\u011fa giderken ise iri kocaman yuvarlak kal\u00e7alar\u0131na tak\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcm, k\u00fclodunun lastik izleri belliydi. Kendi \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 sehpaya koymak i\u00e7in e\u011fildi\u011finde acayip tahrik olmu\u015ftum. Ve sonra o da ikili koltu\u011fa yar\u0131 uzanarak yerle\u015fti.<\/p>\n
– “Eni\u015fteyle aran\u0131z nas\u0131l abla, nas\u0131l gidiyor hayat?” diye bozdum aradaki sessizli\u011fi.<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l olsun, hep ayn\u0131 i\u015fte, k\u00f6y ko\u015fturmas\u0131, hayvanlar, tarla, ba\u011f bah\u00e7e, \u00e7ocuklar falan derken g\u00fcnler ge\u00e7ip gidiyor i\u015fte…” diye yan\u0131tlad\u0131.<\/p>\n
– “Onu demiyorum k\u0131z, eni\u015fteyle aran\u0131 soruyorum!” diye g\u00fcld\u00fcm. O da g\u00fclerek,<\/p>\n
– “He o da ayn\u0131 ba\u011f bah\u00e7e, tarla i\u015fi gibi s\u0131ras\u0131 geldi\u011finde yap\u0131lan bir i\u015f o\u011flum, ne olacak!” dedi.<\/p>\n
– “Ee? Eskiden hi\u00e7 rahat vermiyor bu adam derdin, \u015fikayet ederdin?”<\/p>\n
– “O eskidendi, adam 40 ya\u015f\u0131nda ya\u015fland\u0131!” diye kopard\u0131 kahkahay\u0131. Sonra,<\/p>\n
– “Sen neler yap\u0131yorsun?” dedi.<\/p>\n
– “Ben ne yapay\u0131m, evli de\u011filim barkl\u0131 de\u011filim, kar\u0131m m\u0131 var?” dedim g\u00fclerek.<\/p>\n
– “Kand\u0131rma lan beni, kar\u0131n yoksa sevgilin var, yemi\u015fsindir bir haltlar!”<\/p>\n
– “Oluyor i\u015fte ufak tefek bir \u015feyler!” dedi\u011fimde g\u00fcld\u00fc<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l ufak tefek \u015feyler? Ablandan m\u0131 sakl\u0131yorsun, anlat hadi!”<\/p>\n
– “F\u0131rsat buldu\u011fumuzda sevi\u015fiyoruz, elle\u015fip \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyoruz.”<\/p>\n
– “Hi\u00e7 yapmad\u0131n yani?”<\/p>\n
– “Yok abla, bu k\u0131z\u0131 yapmad\u0131m, zaten bakire.”<\/p>\n
– “O\u011flum, bakireyse elleme \u00f6n taraf\u0131, yar\u0131n bir g\u00fcn b\u0131rakacak olursun k\u0131z\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131za bela olur o i\u015f.”<\/p>\n
– “Evet biliyorum, o y\u00fczden dokunmuyorum ben de zaten.”<\/p>\n
– “Arkadan falan da m\u0131 yapmad\u0131n?”<\/p>\n
– “Abla, onu zaten yapamam herhalde, birka\u00e7 kere denedim olmad\u0131 bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc, ben de k\u0131yamad\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan \u00fcstelemiyorum, i\u015fte s\u00fcrtt\u00fcrerek falan idare ediyorum.”<\/p>\n
– “Niye k\u0131yam\u0131yorsun ki, bir iki yapt\u0131ktan sonra al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 asl\u0131nda.”<\/p>\n
– “Bilmiyorum abla, ay\u0131pt\u0131r s\u00f6ylemesi benimki \u00f6yle \u00e7ok uzun falan de\u011fil ama biraz fazlaca kal\u0131n… Eni\u015fte seni yap\u0131yor mu hi\u00e7 arkandan?”<\/p>\n
– “Ayda y\u0131lda bir yap\u0131yordu.”<\/p>\n
– “Al\u0131\u015fk\u0131ns\u0131n yani?”<\/p>\n
– “H\u0131 h\u0131!”<\/p>\n
– “Can\u0131n yanm\u0131yor mu abla, nas\u0131l al\u0131\u015ft\u0131n?”<\/p>\n
– “\u0130lk ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ac\u0131yor tabi, bir s\u00fcre sonra geni\u015fliyor san\u0131r\u0131m, al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorsun.”<\/p>\n
– “Peki arkadan da \u00e7ok zevk al\u0131yor musun abla?”<\/p>\n
– “Alamad\u0131m, eni\u015ften istiyor diye kabul ediyorum s\u0131rf. Asl\u0131nda zevk alacak gibi oluyorum, ama oraya gelemeden eni\u015ften i\u015fi bitiriyor.”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l yani abla?”<\/p>\n
– “Ablam, ilk \u00f6nce ac\u0131yor, sonra i\u00e7indekine al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor deli\u011fin, ac\u0131 azal\u0131yor zevk al\u0131r gibi olmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yorsun, ama o noktaya gelirken eni\u015ften bo\u015fal\u0131yor, yani ilerisinde ne oldu\u011funu anlayamad\u0131m hi\u00e7.”<\/p>\n
– “H\u0131mm anlad\u0131m, peki normali nas\u0131l, yani \u00f6nden \u00e7ok zevk al\u0131yor musun?”<\/p>\n
– “Onda da ayn\u0131 \u015fey ba\u015f\u0131ma geliyor, tam zevklenmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fken i\u015f bitiyor. Eskiden de erken biterdi, ama i\u00e7imden \u00e7\u0131kmadan bir kere daha yapt\u0131 m\u0131 ben de zevklenirdim, ama art\u0131k ikinci de kolay kolay olmay\u0131nca yar\u0131m yamalak kal\u0131yorum i\u015fte.”<\/p>\n
– “Ee ne yap\u0131yorsun peki?”<\/p>\n
– “Ok\u015fuyorum o\u011flum, eni\u015ften i\u015fini bitirip \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131ktan sonra bazen bir iki parma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sokuyorum, yoksa nas\u0131l yat\u0131p uyuyay\u0131m o halde!”<\/p>\n
– “\u00dcz\u00fcld\u00fcm valla, bilirsin seni \u00e7ok severim. Her konuda oldu\u011fu gibi bu konuda da \u00e7ok mutlu olman\u0131 isterdim.”<\/p>\n
– “Biliyorum ablam, ben de seni \u00e7ok severim.”<\/p>\n
Konu\u015fmam\u0131z eskiden hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar a\u00e7\u0131k bir hal alm\u0131\u015f, eskiden sadece esprisini yap\u0131p g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz \u015feyleri uzun uzun konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flar olmu\u015ftuk.<\/p>\n
\u00dc\u00e7l\u00fc koltukta yan yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan ta\u015f gibi bir hal alan yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bacaklar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rarak saklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, s\u0131rt\u0131m koltu\u011fun arkal\u0131\u011f\u0131na dayal\u0131, y\u00fcz\u00fcm ona d\u00f6n\u00fck, dizlerim karn\u0131ma do\u011fru \u00e7ekilmi\u015f, yan yat\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
O da ayn\u0131 benim gibi y\u00fcz\u00fc bana d\u00f6n\u00fck ikili koltu\u011fa yan yatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Utand\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan elimi bacak arama atam\u0131yordum, ama bacaklar\u0131mla kal\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131p b\u0131rakarak keyifleniyor, bir taraftan da s\u00fcrekli olanlar\u0131 ve olabilecekleri sorguluyordum.<\/p>\n
Resmen Hacer ablay\u0131 arzuluyor, yok yok sadece sohbet ediyoruz ne var bunda diye kendimi kand\u0131r\u0131yor, sonra arzuluyorum i\u015fte ne olacak diye git geller ya\u015f\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Akrabam ve evli olmasa neler yapard\u0131k \u015fimdi diye kuruyor, yanl\u0131\u015f m\u0131 yap\u0131yorum bunlar\u0131 hayal ederek diyor, e akrabam olmasayd\u0131 bizim evde niye kalacakt\u0131 elin kad\u0131n\u0131, bu ortam nas\u0131l olacakt\u0131 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum sonra.<\/p>\n
Ama en \u00e7ok merak etti\u011fim \u015fey kesinlikle \u015fu an onun bunlar hakk\u0131nda ne d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, kafas\u0131ndan neler ge\u00e7ti\u011fiydi. Acaba o da benim onu arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi beni arzuluyor muydu, hamle yapsam evet der miydi, o b\u00f6yle bir \u015feyin aram\u0131zda olabilirli\u011fini sorguluyor muydu gibi onlarca soru kafamda dola\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
En sonunda onu tamamen kaybetmekten, onun samimiyetinden mahrum kalmaktan korktu\u011fuma kanaat getirerek her hangi bir giri\u015fimde bulunmamaya karar vermi\u015ftim.
\nSessizli\u011fi Hacer abla bozdu.<\/p>\n
– “Hasan, niye sustun? S\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131n m\u0131 yoksa nerdeyse annen ya\u015f\u0131nda kar\u0131yla muhabbetten s\u0131pa?”<\/p>\n
– “Yok abla s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131y\u0131m, seninle konu\u015fmay\u0131 \u00e7ok severim bilirsin.”<\/p>\n
– “Ne bileyim o\u011flum, \u00f6yle susunca, bu s\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131 benle muhabbetten, zaten azm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r sevgilisini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordur dedim.”<\/p>\n
– “Yok valla ben halimden \u00e7ok memnunum, emin ol \u015fuan onu da d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyorum!”<\/p>\n
– “Kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor benim aslan\u0131m?”<\/p>\n
– “Kimseyi!”<\/p>\n
– “\u00d6yle \u015feyleri konu\u015funca akl\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr dedim ne bileyim. Yok mu gidece\u011fin bir kad\u0131n k\u0131z falan?”<\/p>\n
– “Yok! Imm, \u015fey.. var asl\u0131nda gidebilece\u011fim birileri de, \u015fuan can\u0131m hi\u00e7 kimseye gitmeyi falan istemiyor yani.”<\/p>\n
– “H\u0131mm, tamam.”<\/p>\n
– “Abla ya, \u00e7ok \u00f6zel bir \u015fey sorabilir miyim?”
\n– “Sor lan, \u00f6zeli mi kald\u0131!”<\/p>\n
– “Evet do\u011fru diyorsun valla! Hi\u00e7 eni\u015ftemden ba\u015fka biri oldu mu?”<\/p>\n
– “Senden ba\u015fka s\u0131rda\u015f\u0131m yok, bunu da sana s\u00f6yleyeyim, evet oldu bir kere.”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l bir kere?”<\/p>\n
– “Yani tek bir adam oldu, yani adam birka\u00e7 kere yapt\u0131!”<\/p>\n
– “Kim peki, nas\u0131l oldu?”<\/p>\n
– “15 ya\u015f\u0131mda evlenmi\u015f, 16 ya\u015f\u0131mda da kocam\u0131 askere g\u00f6ndermi\u015ftim, i\u015fin tad\u0131n\u0131 alm\u0131\u015f, ama yaln\u0131z kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Kafa da bir kar\u0131\u015f havada, biraz \u00e7ocuk biraz kad\u0131nd\u0131m i\u015fte.<\/p>\n
K\u00f6ye yeni tayin olan bir \u00f6\u011fretmen vard\u0131 Tahsin isminde, sen daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fcn hat\u0131rlamazs\u0131n, bir iki sene kald\u0131, tayini \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p gitti bizim k\u00f6yden. \u0130\u015fte onunla olmu\u015ftu, birdaha da eni\u015ftenden ba\u015fka kimse olmad\u0131.”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l ba\u015flad\u0131 peki?”<\/p>\n
– “Bir g\u00fcn dere kenar\u0131ndaki bah\u00e7eye g\u00f6nderdi kaynanam Hayriye teyzen, domates salatal\u0131k biber falan topla gel diye. Ben de ald\u0131m bir sepet, indim bah\u00e7eye, toplad\u0131m bir \u015feyler.<\/p>\n
D\u00f6nmeden dere kenar\u0131na oturdum, \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131, ayaklar\u0131m\u0131 suya soktum, \u00e7ocuk akl\u0131 i\u015fte biraz oyalanay\u0131m da ev i\u015flerinden ne kadar y\u0131rtsam iyidir, g\u00f6r\u00fcmcelerim \u00e7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015fs\u0131nlar dedim!<\/p>\n
O ara bir bakt\u0131m bizim yeni \u00f6\u011fretmen dere kenar\u0131ndan y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek geliyor, suya ta\u015f atarak falan. Yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 \u00e7ocuktu, boylu poslu esmer biriydi.<\/p>\n
Yan\u0131ma gelince durdu, ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, ismimin ne oldu\u011funu falan sorunca bir an heyecanland\u0131m. B\u0131rak yabanc\u0131 bir adam\u0131, k\u00f6y\u00fcn o\u011flanlar\u0131yla da \u00f6yle oturup muhabbet etmek mi var o zaman.<\/p>\n
Domates falan toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, ad\u0131m\u0131n Hacer oldu\u011funu, dinlendi\u011fimi s\u00f6yledim utana s\u0131k\u0131la. Okuyup okumad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 falan sordu. Orta okulu bitirip evlendi\u011fimi s\u00f6yleyince biraz \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda oldu\u011fumu sordu, ben de 16 diye yan\u0131tlad\u0131m. O ara yan\u0131ma oturdu, ben biraz toparlan\u0131p yana kayd\u0131m.<\/p>\n
“Korkma ya sadece sohbet ediyoruz niye ka\u00e7\u0131yorsun?” dedi. Utand\u0131m iyice,<\/p>\n
“G\u00f6r\u00fcrlerse \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc olur dayak yerim” falan dedim.<\/p>\n
“\u0130yi o zaman, \u015fu \u00e7al\u0131l\u0131klar\u0131n o tarafta otural\u0131m da kimse g\u00f6rmesin bizi\u2026” dedi g\u00fclerek. Ben de hi\u00e7 ikiletmeden sessizce kalkt\u0131m arkas\u0131ndan, gidip oturduk oraya.<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 konu\u015fmadan e\u011filip \u00f6pmeye ba\u015flad\u0131 beni. Neden bilmiyorum, b\u00fcy\u00fclenmi\u015f gibi hi\u00e7 sesimi \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Ellemeye, her yan\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015famaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Sonra yere s\u0131rt \u00fcst\u00fc uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, \u015falvar\u0131m\u0131n ve donumun s\u0131yr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve inlemelerim duyulmas\u0131n diye dudaklar\u0131m\u0131 \u0131s\u0131ra \u0131s\u0131ra becerildi\u011fimi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. \u00c7ar\u00e7abuk olup k\u0131sa s\u00fcrede bitmi\u015fti.”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131ld\u0131 peki, kocanla k\u0131yaslad\u0131n m\u0131?”<\/p>\n
– “Hay\u0131r, hi\u00e7 o k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmedim, yasak bir \u015fey yap\u0131yorduk, onun heyecan\u0131 vard\u0131 san\u0131r\u0131m sadece. Aleti nas\u0131ld\u0131, kocamdan iyi mi yap\u0131yordu hi\u00e7 hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum bile\u2026”<\/p>\n
– “Sonras\u0131 nas\u0131l geli\u015fti?”<\/p>\n
– “Pek fazla konu\u015fmadan toparlan\u0131p ka\u00e7ar gibi ayr\u0131ld\u0131m oradan. Eve girince i\u015f g\u00fc\u00e7, kaynana d\u0131rd\u0131r\u0131 falan unutuvermi\u015ftim bile. Gece d\u00f6\u015fe\u011fime yat\u0131nca akl\u0131ma gelmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7ok g\u00fcnah diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, korktum cehennemlik olaca\u011f\u0131m diye, iyi ki yakalanmad\u0131k dedim, halimiz nice olurdu diye i\u00e7imden ge\u00e7irdim.”<\/p>\n
– “Can\u0131n istemedi mi tekrar?”<\/p>\n
– “\u0130stemez mi! Korku, utanma falan ge\u00e7ti bir s\u00fcre sonra, elim bacak arama gitti, \u00f6yle uyumu\u015fum. Aradan g\u00fcnler, haftalar, aylar ge\u00e7ti bir kez daha denk geldik dere kenar\u0131nda, ayn\u0131 yerde yeniden yapt\u0131.”<\/p>\n
– “Gene mi konu\u015fmad\u0131n\u0131z do\u011fru d\u00fczg\u00fcn?”<\/p>\n
– “Yok gene konu\u015fmad\u0131k, sessiz sedas\u0131z bak\u0131\u015farak hallettik i\u015fimizi. Sonra o tayin olup gitmeden bir kez daha oldu ve bitti her \u015fey. Sonra kimseyle hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmad\u0131 hayat\u0131mda.”<\/p>\n
– “\u00d6zl\u00fcyor musun?”<\/p>\n
– “Yok be yavrum, adam\u0131n tipini bile hayal meyal hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum, be\u015fer dakikal\u0131k \u015feylerdi zaten.”<\/p>\n
– “En az\u0131ndan an\u0131n olmu\u015f i\u015fte!”<\/p>\n
– “Evet!”<\/p>\n
– “Abla uykun geldi mi, yatacaksan \u00e7eneye tutmayay\u0131m seni?”<\/p>\n
– “Yok uykum, iyiyim b\u00f6yle, senin geldiyse git yat ablam.”<\/p>\n
– “Yok abla benim de uykum, hem ne g\u00fczel sohbet ediyoruz, seninle b\u00f6yle f\u0131rsat\u0131 bir daha kim bilir nas\u0131l buluruz.”<\/p>\n
– “Do\u011fru diyorsun, uyku bast\u0131rana kadar otural\u0131m o zaman.”<\/p>\n
– “Evet, otural\u0131m abla.”<\/p>\n
– “Hasan, sen en son ne zaman bir \u015feyler yapt\u0131n?”<\/p>\n
– “Bu k\u0131z arkada\u015f\u0131mla bir hafta \u00f6nce yapt\u0131k abla. Babamlar k\u00f6ye gittikten bir g\u00fcn sonra onu buraya eve getirdim, zaten ertesi g\u00fcn de memleketine gitti.”<\/p>\n
– “Eee, neler yapt\u0131n\u0131z anlatsana.”<\/p>\n
– “Dedi\u011fim gibi abla, \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp elle\u015fiyoruz, sevi\u015fiyoruz sadece.”<\/p>\n
– “Anlat i\u015fte, tam olarak neler yap\u0131yorsunuz.”<\/p>\n
– “H\u0131mm, ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 merak ediyorsun yani?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet, ama utan\u0131yorsan anlatma.”<\/p>\n
– “Yok abla utanm\u0131yorum, anlat\u0131r\u0131m da, ben de sen ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 bilmek istemezsin diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmden k\u0131sa keserek ge\u00e7mi\u015ftim.”<\/p>\n
– “Yoo anlat.”<\/p>\n
– “Tamam o zaman. Bu son seferinde bize geldi\u011finde \u00fczerinde tek par\u00e7a dizlerine kadar yazl\u0131k bir elbise vard\u0131, biraz sohbetten sonra burada yan yana otururken \u00f6pmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m, bir taraftan da ok\u015famaya. Bir s\u00fcre sonra onun elleri de s\u0131rt\u0131mda ensemde dola\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, yava\u015f\u00e7a kald\u0131rd\u0131m yata\u011f\u0131ma gittik, bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da soydum.”<\/p>\n
– “S\u00fctyenini, kilodunu da m\u0131?”<\/p>\n
– “H\u0131 h\u0131, onlar\u0131 da \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m.”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l bir \u015feyler giymi\u015fti?”<\/p>\n
– “Bak bunlar\u0131 sorup beni heyecanland\u0131r\u0131yorsun, sanki kad\u0131n \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131na olan ilgimi biliyorsun abla!”<\/p>\n
– “Yok, bilmiyordum! Nas\u0131l bir ilgi bu?”<\/p>\n
– “Ne bileyim abla, \u00f6zellikle b\u00f6yle dantelli falan k\u00fclotlar, s\u00fctyenler \u00e7ok tahrik ediyor beni, bazen milletin ipte as\u0131l\u0131 donlar\u0131 bile etkiler.”<\/p>\n
– “Alemsin Hasan!”<\/p>\n
– “Ama en \u00e7ok yeni \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olanlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmek azd\u0131r\u0131r!”<\/p>\n
– “Nerden buluyorsun o\u011flum yeni \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131?”<\/p>\n
– “Yani k\u0131z arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131nkileri falan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131nca hemen elimden b\u0131rakmam. Ellerim, koklar\u0131m, \u015feyime falan s\u00fcrerim!”<\/p>\n
– “\u0130lahi Hasan, bir ya\u015f\u0131ma daha girdim valla!”<\/p>\n
– “Sen nas\u0131l \u015feyler giyiyorsun peki abla?”<\/p>\n
– “Ben de \u00f6yle tam k\u00f6yl\u00fc i\u015fi don giymem, benim de ho\u015fuma gidiyor \u00f6yle dantelli \u015feyler falan onlardan al\u0131yorum.”<\/p>\n
– “Eni\u015ftemin g\u00f6z\u00fc bayram ediyor yani!”<\/p>\n
– “Yok lan, g\u00f6rm\u00fcyordur bile o, yata\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde karanl\u0131kta \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131veriyorum, yapmak istedi\u011fi zaman. Pek donuma g\u00f6mle\u011fime bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmedim!”<\/p>\n
– “\u015eimdi nas\u0131l bir \u015fey var i\u00e7inde abla?”<\/p>\n
– “\u00c7ok mu merak ettin?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet abla, k\u0131zm\u0131yorsun de\u011fil mi?”<\/p>\n
– “K\u0131zm\u0131yorum da, benim donumdan ne olacak, sen kim bilir nas\u0131llar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsundur k\u0131zlarda.”<\/p>\n
– “Olsun merak ettim gene de, s\u00f6yle sen!”<\/p>\n
– “Ne s\u00f6yleyim lan, al bak \u00e7ok merak ettiysen!” deyip birden aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131 ve \u00e7i\u00e7ekli pijamas\u0131n\u0131 az s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131p k\u00fclodunu g\u00f6sterdi.<\/p>\n
Krem rengi, \u00f6n\u00fc dantelli slip tarz\u0131 bir k\u00fclottu. Ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 fazla g\u00f6remeden hemen toparlay\u0131p pijamas\u0131n\u0131 yeniden ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde uzand\u0131 yerine…<\/p>\n
– “Ee Hasan, k\u0131zla neler oldu\u011funu anlat\u0131yordun.”<\/p>\n
– “He tamam abla, i\u00e7 \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p yata\u011fa yat\u0131rd\u0131m s\u0131rt \u00fcst\u00fc, ben de h\u0131zl\u0131ca soyunup uzand\u0131m yan\u0131na ve \u00f6p\u00fcp ok\u015famaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.”<\/p>\n
– “Oras\u0131na da elliyor musun?”<\/p>\n
– “Neresine abla?”<\/p>\n
– “Anlad\u0131n lan sen!”<\/p>\n
– “Yoo anlamad\u0131m abla!”<\/p>\n
– “Am\u0131na lan! \u0130lla s\u00f6ylettin bana!”<\/p>\n
– “H\u0131mm, evet elliyorum tabi.”<\/p>\n
– “Devam et!”<\/p>\n
– “Biraz dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6pt\u00fckten sonra boynunu falan da \u00f6p\u00fcp memelerine indim, memelerini yalay\u0131p emdim bir s\u00fcre, elim de bacak aras\u0131nda, ok\u015fuyorum.”<\/p>\n
– “H\u0131mm, \u0131sland\u0131 m\u0131 k\u0131z\u0131n am\u0131 hemen?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet, \u00e7abucak \u0131slan\u0131yor! Seninki?”<\/p>\n
– “Benimki de \u00e7abuk \u0131slan\u0131r! Devam et, sonra?”<\/p>\n
– “Sonra, g\u00f6be\u011fini falan yalay\u0131p a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya do\u011fru indirdim ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131.”<\/p>\n
– “Nereye, bacaklar\u0131na m\u0131?”<\/p>\n
– “Hem bacaklar\u0131na, hem de bacak aras\u0131na.”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l o\u011flum, kas\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 falan da m\u0131 yal\u0131yorsun?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet, am\u0131n\u0131 da yal\u0131yorum!”<\/p>\n
– “Lan get oras\u0131 da m\u0131 yalan\u0131r, pis!”<\/p>\n
– “Olur mu abla, g\u00f6rsen nas\u0131l zevk al\u0131yor k\u0131zlar bundan, resmen k\u0131vran\u0131yorlar!”<\/p>\n
– “\u00d6yle zevk mi olur lan, ben yalatmam hayatta!”<\/p>\n
– “\u00d6yle deme, ver bir g\u00fcn eni\u015ftemin a\u011fz\u0131na da g\u00f6r!”<\/p>\n
– “\u0130yy, istemem!”<\/p>\n
– “O zaman sen eni\u015fteminkini de hi\u00e7 yalamam\u0131\u015fs\u0131nd\u0131r?”<\/p>\n
– “Tabi ki yalamad\u0131m, olur mu \u00f6yle \u015fey, iyyy!”<\/p>\n
– “\u00c7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck zevkleri ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131yorsun valla!”<\/p>\n
– “Kals\u0131n, kals\u0131n \u00f6yle zevk!”<\/p>\n
– “Keyfin bilir abla!”<\/p>\n
– “Ee, sonra ne yapt\u0131n?”<\/p>\n
– “K\u0131z iyice k\u0131vran\u0131nca \u00fczerine uzand\u0131m, benimkini bacak aras\u0131na yerle\u015ftirip sokmadan s\u00fcrtt\u00fcrd\u00fcm bir taraftan da dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6perek.”<\/p>\n
– “Gelmedi mi seninki?”<\/p>\n
– “Yok abla i\u00e7ine giremedi\u011fim i\u00e7in gelmiyor hemen, sonra y\u00fcz\u00fcst\u00fc \u00e7evirdim. Genelde bu \u015fekildeyken gelirim ben.”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l yani?”<\/p>\n
– “Ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde uzan\u0131r\u0131m \u00fczerine, benimkini iyice t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fckler \u0131slat\u0131r\u0131m \u00f6yle yerle\u015ftiririm kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na, s\u00fcrte s\u00fcrte gelirim!”<\/p>\n
– “Oralar\u0131 d\u00f6lleyip k\u0131z\u0131 hamile b\u0131rakma bir de, i\u00e7ine mi\u00e7ine ka\u00e7ar!”<\/p>\n
– “Dikkat ediyorum abla, tam gelece\u011fim s\u0131ra kalkar ya avcuma ya da s\u0131rt\u0131na falan bo\u015fal\u0131r\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
– “O g\u00fcn de \u00f6yle s\u00fcrterken mi bo\u015fald\u0131n?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet, s\u00fcrterken benimki deli\u011fine dayand\u0131k\u00e7a \u00e7ok can\u0131m istedi.”<\/p>\n
– “Neyin dayand\u0131k\u00e7a?”<\/p>\n
– “Benimki i\u015fte abla!”<\/p>\n
– “Neyin lan, utanmaya m\u0131 ba\u015flad\u0131n?”<\/p>\n
– “Yara\u011f\u0131m ya!”<\/p>\n
– “K\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fc de g\u00fczel tabi \u015fimdi!”<\/p>\n
– “Seninki kadar de\u011fil abla!”<\/p>\n
– “Git e\u015f\u015fek dalga ge\u00e7me, benim g\u00f6t\u00fcm de\u011firmen ta\u015f\u0131 gibi, neresi g\u00fczel olacak 35 ya\u015f\u0131nda kad\u0131n\u0131n!”<\/p>\n
– “Kendine haks\u0131zl\u0131k etme abla, sen halen bu k\u0131zlar\u0131 cebinden \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131rs\u0131n!”<\/p>\n
– “E\u015f\u015fek! Ee, sonra ne yapt\u0131n?”<\/p>\n
– “Ba\u015flad\u0131m yalvarmaya, hadi bir kere ver arkadan yapal\u0131m falan diye.”<\/p>\n
– “Eee?”<\/p>\n
– “Olmaz, \u00e7ok ac\u0131yor falan diye itiraz etti \u00f6nce, ben de deneyelim \u00e7ok ac\u0131rsa b\u0131rak\u0131r\u0131m diye ikna ettim.”<\/p>\n
– “Orospuya bak sen! Versene, benim aslan\u0131m\u0131 niye \u00fcz\u00fcyorsun!”<\/p>\n
– “Tabi abla, da \u00f6yle hep veren bulsam ke\u015fke!”<\/p>\n
– “Sonra ne oldu?”<\/p>\n
– “Kalkt\u0131 alt\u0131mdan, gidip \u00e7antas\u0131ndan el kremini ald\u0131 geldi, uzand\u0131 yeniden \u00f6n\u00fcme, eline krem al\u0131p biraz s\u00fcrd\u00fc g\u00f6t deli\u011fine, sen de kremle diyerek bana uzatt\u0131, ben de iyice kremleyip uzand\u0131m \u00fczerine.”<\/p>\n
Art\u0131k Hacer ablan\u0131n bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 bayg\u0131nla\u015fm\u0131\u015f, bir eli de bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda kilitlenmi\u015fti. Benim bacak aramda k\u00fct\u00fck gibi olan yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi, o da elini s\u0131k\u0131yordu.
\n– “Eee, devam etsene!”
\n– “\u00dczerine uzan\u0131nca hafif belimi kald\u0131rd\u0131m, bir elimle yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 tutup kremden iyice kayganla\u015fm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6t yanaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na yerle\u015ftirip deli\u011fine dayad\u0131m.”
\n– “Sikseydin bir g\u00fczel orospuyu!”
\n– “Yok abla ya nerde, ba\u015f\u0131 bile girmeden bast\u0131rmamla ac\u0131yor b\u0131rak ne olursun, yapmayal\u0131m, ben vazge\u00e7tim falan demeye ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00c7ok istiyorum \u00f6yle bo\u015falmay\u0131 falan dedim ama raz\u0131 edemedim.<\/p>\n
“Hadi kremleri y\u0131ka gel, emerek yalayarak bo\u015faltay\u0131m” deyince, kalk\u0131p ko\u015ftum hemen banyoya, nas\u0131l olsa o da \u00e7ok ho\u015fuma gidiyor. Bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da sabunla y\u0131kad\u0131m geldim.<\/p>\n
Oturdum yata\u011f\u0131ma, o da kalk\u0131p yerde diz \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc, tuttu yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 dibinden, yalay\u0131p emmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Zaten hepsini a\u011fz\u0131na s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ramad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in anca ucunu emiyordu. Bir taraftan ucunu yalay\u0131p emerek, bir taraftan eliyle s\u0131vazlayarak getirdi beni, a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi memelerine f\u0131\u015fk\u0131rtt\u0131m d\u00f6llerimi.”<\/p>\n
– “Yaras\u0131n ko\u00e7uma!”
\nBunlar\u0131 konu\u015furken Hacer ablan\u0131n kal\u0131n dolgun bacaklar\u0131 ile elini s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131p b\u0131rakmalar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0131zland\u0131\u011f\u0131, g\u00f6zlerinin kayd\u0131\u011f\u0131, ara ara dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u0131s\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcmden ka\u00e7mam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u015eu an yapaca\u011f\u0131m bir hamlenin evetle sonu\u00e7lanaca\u011f\u0131na neredeyse emindim, ama gene de ata\u011fa ge\u00e7medim. B\u00f6yle bile olmas\u0131, yani \u015fuan ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m, deli gibi isterken bir \u015fey yapamadan kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131 kudurmam\u0131z bile inan\u0131lmaz ho\u015fuma gidiyordu. Durumu hi\u00e7 bozmak istemiyordum. Ak\u0131\u015f\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131m…
\n– “Hasan?”
\n– “Efendim abla?”
\n– “\u00c7ok merak ettim…”
\nBir an yarak yalamay\u0131, am yalatmay\u0131 merak etti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek sordum,
\n– “Neyi abla?”
\n– “Aman bo\u015f ver, k\u0131zars\u0131n sen \u015fimdi.”
\n– “Yok abla niye k\u0131zay\u0131m, ne merak ettiysen sor!”
\n– “Bak sonra k\u0131zarsan, dar\u0131l\u0131rsan, yanl\u0131\u015f d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrsen \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr\u00fcm.”
\n– “Yok abla ben senden gelecek hi\u00e7bir soruya k\u0131zmam da g\u00fccenmem de, sor l\u00fctfen!”
\n– “Ben de senden gelen sorulardan g\u00fccenmem ablam.”
\n– “Ee hadi sor o zaman abla, neyi merak ettin?”
\n– “Yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026 \u00c7ok kal\u0131n diyorsun ya, merak ettim nas\u0131l bir \u015fey oldu\u011funu.”
\n– “G\u00f6stereyim mi?”
\n– “Bilmem ki…”
\nBirden aya\u011fa kalk\u0131p alt\u0131mdaki e\u015fofman\u0131 ve boxeri indiriverdim, dimdik ok gibi \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 ortaya benim yarak. Hacer ablan\u0131n g\u00f6zleri fal ta\u015f\u0131 gibi a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sonra toplay\u0131p donumu uzand\u0131m yeniden.
\n– “O\u011flum bu harbiden \u00e7ok kal\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, neredeyse bile\u011fim gibi!”
\n– “\u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey abla!”
\n– “\u015eimdi anlad\u0131m k\u0131zlar\u0131n derdini, nas\u0131l girecek bu ufac\u0131k k\u0131z g\u00f6tlerine, hadi kar\u0131 olsa neyse!”
\n– “Kar\u0131lar\u0131nkine girer diyorsun yani?”
\n– “Ya ne bileyim o\u011flum, \u00f6yle bile zor olur gibi ama, en az\u0131ndan ya\u015f ilerledik\u00e7e bolla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131r biraz, zamanla da yapa yapa al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, arkadan girer herhalde.”
\n– “Eni\u015fteminki nas\u0131l abla?”
\n– “Seninkinden biraz uzun onunki san\u0131r\u0131m, ama kal\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bunun yar\u0131s\u0131 kadard\u0131r.”
\n– “Eni\u015fteminki benimki gibi olsayd\u0131 verir miydin gene de arkan\u0131?”
\n– “O anlamaz ki ac\u0131yor b\u0131rak falan dememden, yapar ge\u00e7erdi can\u0131 istedikten sonra.”
\n– “Tamam da, sen ister miydin?”
\n– “S\u0131rf meraktan denemeyi isterdim!”
\n– “\u00d6yle k\u0131zlar gibi nazlan\u0131p vermemezlik etmezdin yani?”
\n– “Tabi ki can\u0131m, \u00f6yle can\u0131 azc\u0131k m\u0131y\u0131m ben!”
\n– “\u0130lahi abla! Abla?”
\n– Efendim aslan\u0131m?”
\n– “Ben de en \u00e7ok neyi merak ediyorum biliyor musun?”
\n– “Neyi lan s\u0131pa, ablan\u0131n am\u0131n\u0131 m\u0131?”
\n– “Onu da g\u00f6rsem hay\u0131r demem ama, en \u00e7ok g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc!” Hacer abla g\u00fclerek,<\/p>\n
“Sap\u0131k seni!” dedi ve aya\u011fa kalk\u0131p arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nerek \u00e7i\u00e7ekli pijamas\u0131yla krem rengi k\u00fclodunu biraz s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131p g\u00f6sterdi o kocaman, yuvarlak, bembeyaz g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc. Resmen bay\u0131lacak gibi oldum, dibim d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, hi\u00e7 g\u00f6t g\u00f6rmemi\u015f gibiydim.<\/p>\n
Nas\u0131l olmayay\u0131m, ergenli\u011fe girdi\u011fim g\u00fcnden beri elbiselerin \u00fcst\u00fcnden hayranl\u0131kla bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m o iri kal\u00e7alar\u0131 \u015fimdi \u00e7\u0131plak g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.
\nHacer abla pijamas\u0131n\u0131 ve k\u00fclodunu toplay\u0131p yeniden uzan\u0131rken bacaklar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yara\u011f\u0131m kendini b\u0131rak\u0131vermi\u015fti, 22 y\u0131ll\u0131k hayat\u0131mda ilk defa elimi bile hi\u00e7 s\u00fcrmeden bo\u015fal\u0131verdim.<\/p>\n
Hem saatlerdir s\u00fcren konu\u015fmalar\u0131m\u0131za, hem de o hayallerimdeki bembeyaz g\u00f6t\u00fc g\u00f6rmeye daha fazla dayanamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bacak aramdaki \u0131slakl\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcnmesin diye endi\u015felenirken, bir taraftan da, o ne haldedir, acaba onun da bacak aras\u0131 \u0131slanm\u0131\u015f m\u0131d\u0131r diye ge\u00e7iriyordum kafamdan.<\/p>\n
Vay be hayallerimin kad\u0131n\u0131, hacer ablam elini bile s\u00fcrmeden bo\u015faltm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 beni.<\/p>\n
Hayallerimin kad\u0131n\u0131, hacer ablam elini bile s\u00fcrmeden bo\u015faltm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 beni<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l, ge\u00e7ti mi merak\u0131n, ablan\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc de g\u00f6rd\u00fcn art\u0131k!”<\/p>\n
– “\u00c7ok te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim abla, \u00e7ok \u00e7ok g\u00fczel!”<\/p>\n
– “Hadi ordan, ya\u011f \u00e7ekme!”<\/p>\n
– “Valla abla, emin ol bug\u00fcne kadar g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm en g\u00fczel g\u00f6t seninki!”<\/p>\n
– “Hasan, i\u00e7im bir tuhaf oldu benim.”<\/p>\n
– “Neden abla?”<\/p>\n
– “Biz \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015feyler mi yap\u0131yoruz diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum.”<\/p>\n
– “Yok be abla!”<\/p>\n
– “O\u011flum hem akrabay\u0131z, hem ben evliyim, hem de senden ka\u00e7 ya\u015f b\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm, iyice g\u00fcnaha girdik bug\u00fcn!”<\/p>\n
– “Hayat\u0131m\u0131n en mutlu g\u00fcnlerinden birini ge\u00e7iriyorum valla, ne olursa olsun umurumda de\u011fil benim abla!”<\/p>\n
– “Ger\u00e7ekten mi?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet abla, ger\u00e7ekten!”<\/p>\n
– “Peki do\u011fru s\u00f6yle bak, hi\u00e7 akl\u0131na, ablama bak orospu gibi konu\u015fup oras\u0131n\u0131 buras\u0131n\u0131 da g\u00f6sterdi bana, diye gelmiyor mu?”<\/p>\n
– “Gelmiyor tabi ki! Sana bir itirafta bulunaca\u011f\u0131m, ister k\u0131z ister s\u00f6v, art\u0131k dayanam\u0131yorum. Ben \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumdan beri sana hayran\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l yani?”<\/p>\n
– “Baya i\u015fte. Erkek olmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnden beri hep sana hayran olmu\u015fumdur. Hep senin memelerini, o g\u00fczel kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 hayal etmi\u015fimdir!”<\/p>\n
– “Sen ciddi misin?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet abla. K\u0131zd\u0131n de\u011fil mi bana? Bunlar\u0131 s\u00f6yledim rahatlad\u0131m, ama \u015fimdi pi\u015fman\u0131m.”<\/p>\n
– “Neden pi\u015fmans\u0131n?”<\/p>\n
– “Bana k\u0131z\u0131p benimle samimiyetini kesmenden, seni kaybetmekten korkuyorum!”dedim ve inan\u0131lmaz bir duygu yo\u011funlu\u011funun i\u00e7inde buldum kendimi, g\u00f6zlerimden ya\u015flar s\u00fcz\u00fclmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Hacer abla kalk\u0131p yan\u0131ma geldi. Ben halen g\u00f6t\u00fcm\u00fc koltu\u011fun arkal\u0131\u011f\u0131na dayam\u0131\u015f, dizlerim karn\u0131mda, ellerimi g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcmde kenetlemi\u015f, ana karn\u0131ndaki bir bebek gibi yat\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
\u00d6n\u00fcmdeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bo\u015flu\u011fa oturdu, hayran oldu\u011fum iri kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 zorca s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rarak. Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc, sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015famaya ba\u015flad\u0131,<\/p>\n
– “Ben sana k\u0131zsam bile k\u0131yabilir miyim, kuzum benim!” diyerek g\u00f6zlerimden s\u00fcz\u00fclen ya\u015flar\u0131 silmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken e\u011filip e\u011filip \u00f6p\u00fcyordu yanaklar\u0131m\u0131…<\/p>\n
– “Sen benim hem kuzum, hem aslan par\u00e7ams\u0131n, ben sana k\u0131yar m\u0131y\u0131m, seni b\u0131rak\u0131r m\u0131y\u0131m hi\u00e7!”<\/p>\n
– “B\u0131rakmazs\u0131n de\u011fil mi abla?”<\/p>\n
– “B\u0131rakmam kuzum!”<\/p>\n
– “K\u0131yamazs\u0131n, ama k\u0131zd\u0131n bana de\u011fil mi?”<\/p>\n
– “Hay\u0131r, k\u0131zmad\u0131m. Tam aksine, beni be\u011fenmen ho\u015fuma gitti. Hem de dedi\u011fim gibi k\u0131zsam da k\u0131yamam ki sana!”<\/p>\n
– “Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum abla!”<\/p>\n
– “Ben de seni kuzum! Hadi \u00fczme art\u0131k kendini, bak ben de \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyorum sen b\u00f6yle olunca!”<\/p>\n
– “Peki ne olacak \u015fimdi abla?”<\/p>\n
– “Ne olursa olsun be aslan par\u00e7am, senle benden ba\u015fka kimse bilmedikten sonra!”<\/p>\n
– “Ablam benimmm!” diyerek a\u00e7t\u0131m kollar\u0131m\u0131, kocaman sar\u0131ld\u0131m. Ben de onu \u00f6pmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m yanaklar\u0131ndan…<\/p>\n
\u00dczerime e\u011filip iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Son \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc dudaklar\u0131na kondurdu\u011fumda aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131, ellerimden tutup beni de kald\u0131rd\u0131 ve s\u00fcr\u00fckleyerek banyoya kadar g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc,<\/p>\n
– “Hadi y\u0131ka o yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc!” dedi. Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc y\u0131kad\u0131m, havlu verdi, kurulad\u0131m. Elimi tutup, “Gel benimle!” diyerek y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n
I\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yakmadan benim odama g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc beni, sadece perdenin izin verdi\u011fi kadar ay ve sokak \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 ayd\u0131nlat\u0131yordu lo\u015f oday\u0131. Pikemi a\u00e7\u0131p yat\u0131rd\u0131 beni.<\/p>\n
\u00d6p\u00fcp iyi geceler dileyerek gidece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken, yan\u0131ma uzand\u0131, \u015fimdi yan d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f ve bir birimize bakar vaziyette yat\u0131yorduk.<\/p>\n
Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc elleri aras\u0131na al\u0131p \u00f6pmeye ba\u015flad\u0131, yanaklar\u0131m\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc, g\u00f6zlerimi hatta burnumun ucunu\u2026 Hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey konu\u015fmuyorduk art\u0131k…<\/p>\n
\u00dcrkekli\u011fimi atm\u0131\u015f, o \u00f6perken ellerimi beline atm\u0131\u015f, s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fayarak s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 kendime do\u011fru \u00e7ekmi\u015ftim. Bir baca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bacaklar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131na koymu\u015ftu, art\u0131k deli gibi \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorduk. Acemiceydi \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fmesi, ama hayallerimdeki kad\u0131nd\u0131 ne de olsa.\u2026<\/p>\n
Ben de ihtirasla \u00f6p\u00fcyordum, dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 dudaklar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131na al\u0131p emmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda titriyordu resmen… Dilimi a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ine sokuyor emmesini sa\u011fl\u0131yor sonra ben onun dilini a\u011fz\u0131mda hapsediyordum.<\/p>\n
T\u00fcm bunlar\u0131n onun i\u00e7in yepyeni bir deneyim oldu\u011fundan emindim. Ellerimiz bazen nazik bazen hoyrat\u00e7a v\u00fccutlar\u0131m\u0131zda geziniyordu.<\/p>\n
\u00d6nce g\u00fcl kurusu ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fc kayd\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan boynuna, sonra pijamas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc tutup \u00e7ektim ba\u015f\u0131na do\u011fru.<\/p>\n
Hacer abla g\u00f6vdesini ve ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p yar\u0131 do\u011frularak \u00e7\u0131karmam\u0131 sa\u011flad\u0131. \u015eimdi o iri ba\u015f\u0131m gibi memeleri aram\u0131zdayd\u0131 ve tenime de\u011fmelerini istiyordum.<\/p>\n
H\u0131zl\u0131ca kendi ti\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcm\u00fc de \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p att\u0131m \u00fczerimden… O an hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011fim bir hareketlilik oldu.<\/p>\n
Bir anda kalkt\u0131, \u00f6nce pijamas\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131, sonra da \u015fimdi daha net g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm krem rengi \u00f6n\u00fc dantelli k\u00fclodunu bacaklar\u0131ndan s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Pijamas\u0131n\u0131 f\u0131rlatt\u0131 yere, ama k\u00fclodunu bana uzatt\u0131.<\/p>\n
S\u0131rt \u00fcst\u00fc yat\u0131p o g\u00fczel g\u00f6t\u00fcnden \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131, am kokan k\u00fclodunu koklamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. O ise yine beklemedi\u011fim bir hareket yaparak benim e\u015fofman alt\u0131m\u0131 ve boxerimi \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p att\u0131 yere. Yeniden uzand\u0131 yan\u0131ma, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme koyarak yan yatt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Konu\u015fmuyorduk hi\u00e7… Ve uzun bir aradan sonra aram\u0131zdaki sessizli\u011fi ilk bozan o oldu.<\/p>\n
– “Hasan?”<\/p>\n
– “Efendim abla?”<\/p>\n
– “Her \u015feyi \u00f6\u011fret bana tamam m\u0131? Yatakta ya\u015fayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ne varsa seninle \u00f6\u011frenip ya\u015famak istiyorum!”<\/p>\n
– “Tamam abla!”<\/p>\n
– “Benim ikinci kocam ol!”<\/p>\n
– “Olaca\u011f\u0131m ablam, kar\u0131m benim… D\u00fcnyan\u0131n en mutlu insan\u0131y\u0131m \u015fu an!”<\/p>\n
Bu arada Hacer abla \u00fcrkek hareketlerle g\u00f6be\u011fimi kas\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015fayarak en sonunda elini yara\u011f\u0131ma atm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Avucuna al\u0131p ok\u015farken, konu\u015fmaya da devam ediyordu.<\/p>\n
– “Hasan, biliyor musun, ben eni\u015fteninkini bazen i\u00e7imden falan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yerine ittirmek d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda hi\u00e7 b\u00f6yle elime al\u0131p ok\u015famad\u0131m.”<\/p>\n
– “Ger\u00e7ekten mi?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet, ikinci kocama nasipmi\u015f!”<\/p>\n
– “Senin kocam diyen a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 yerim ben!”<\/p>\n
– “\u00c7ok g\u00fczel yiyorsun zaten! O da ilkti benim i\u00e7in biliyor musun? Eni\u015ftenle hi\u00e7 \u00f6yle \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fmedik. Hatta o sana anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00f6\u011fretmen bile o kadar \u00e7ok \u00f6pmemi\u015fti beni… Ayn\u0131 filmlerdeki gibiydi.”<\/p>\n
– “Ho\u015fland\u0131n m\u0131 peki?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet \u00e7ok! Bir de bir \u015fey diyeyim mi?”<\/p>\n
– “S\u00f6yle abla?”<\/p>\n
– “Senin alet ger\u00e7ekten \u00e7ok kal\u0131n, baksana tam sard\u0131\u011f\u0131mda parmaklar\u0131m birbirlerine de\u011fmiyor! \u0130\u00e7imde nas\u0131l olacak acaba?”<\/p>\n
– “Anlar\u0131z birazdan!”<\/p>\n
– “E\u015f\u015fek, ablan\u0131 sikecek misin?”<\/p>\n
– “H\u0131 h\u0131! \u0130stemiyor musun, yoksa g\u00f6z\u00fcn m\u00fc korktu?”<\/p>\n
– “\u0130stiyorum, senden gelen her \u015feyi istiyorum!”<\/p>\n
– “Ya arkan\u0131 da istersem?”<\/p>\n
– “Kocam de\u011fil misin art\u0131k, istersen onu da al\u0131rs\u0131n!”<\/p>\n
– “Bir tanem benim!”<\/p>\n
– “Aslan\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
– “Sen \u015f\u00f6yle s\u0131rt \u00fcst\u00fc uzan bakay\u0131m abla!” diyerek \u00fczerine uzand\u0131m, \u015fimdi o iri memelerini eziyordum a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131m alt\u0131nda…<\/p>\n
Dudaklar\u0131na yumuldum tekrar, emiyor, yal\u0131yor hatta hafif hafif \u0131s\u0131r\u0131yordum ve Hacer abla alt\u0131mda k\u0131vran\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
K\u00fct\u00fck gibi olan yara\u011f\u0131m hedefini bulmu\u015f, s\u0131cac\u0131k amc\u0131\u011f\u0131na temas eder olmu\u015ftu. Bir ara eliyle tam yerine yerle\u015ftirdi\u011finde \u0131p\u0131slak oldu\u011funu ve f\u0131r\u0131n gibi yand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettim.<\/p>\n
– “Hasan, o k\u0131zlara s\u00fcrtt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn gibi s\u00fcrt bana da kal\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131!”<\/p>\n
– “Bundan sonra hep sana s\u00fcrtece\u011fim zaten!”<\/p>\n
– “Erkek adams\u0131n, can\u0131n istedi\u011fi k\u0131za kar\u0131ya da s\u00fcrt aslan\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
– “Sana iyice bay\u0131lmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m ben! K\u0131skan\u0131p k\u0131zmaz m\u0131s\u0131n ba\u015fka kar\u0131lar\u0131 sikti\u011fimde, k\u0131zlara s\u00fcrtt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde?”<\/p>\n
– “K\u0131skan\u0131r\u0131m, ama k\u0131zmam aslan\u0131m, erke\u011fim bilir!”<\/p>\n
– “Sana deli oluyor erke\u011fin!”<\/p>\n
– “Ben sana a\u015f\u0131k oldum bile!”<\/p>\n
– “Ohh kar\u0131c\u0131\u011f\u0131m, haz\u0131r m\u0131s\u0131n tam kar\u0131m olmaya, beni i\u00e7ine almaya, bana siktirmeye?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet, evet kocac\u0131\u011f\u0131m, evet aslan\u0131m, koy am\u0131ma g\u00f6t\u00fcme, kar\u0131n yap beni!”<\/p>\n
– “Off bebe\u011fim hadi a\u00e7 o zaman bacaklar\u0131n\u0131, yerle\u015ftir kendi elinle!”<\/p>\n
– “Hadi ittir aslan\u0131m, sok i\u00e7ime o k\u00fct\u00fc\u011f\u00fc!”<\/p>\n
– “Ip\u0131slak, yan\u0131yor sanki am\u0131n!”<\/p>\n
– “Sana yang\u0131n o!”<\/p>\n
– “\u00c7ok dar!”<\/p>\n
– “Evet, sana dar!”<\/p>\n
– “Sokuyorum art\u0131k!”<\/p>\n
– “Sok kocac\u0131\u011f\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
– “Offf giriyorum, harikas\u0131n, am\u0131n darac\u0131k!”<\/p>\n
– “Ahhh, Hasan, i\u00e7imde bir yerler y\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131yor sanki!”<\/p>\n
– “\u00c7\u0131karay\u0131m m\u0131?”<\/p>\n
– “Hay\u0131r, sik am\u0131m\u0131!”<\/p>\n
– “Ac\u0131yor mu?”<\/p>\n
– “Al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131m, anam anammmm, sen bana ald\u0131rma, ahh, sok aslan\u0131m, ahhh, a\u011flasam da s\u0131zlasam da sok kuzum, sok Hasan\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
– “Al o zaman ablam, ye Hasan\u0131n k\u00fct\u00fck gibi yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da kar\u0131s\u0131 ol! Offf, darac\u0131ks\u0131n, \u00e7ok ho\u015fuma gidiyor!”<\/p>\n
– “Hasan, sanki, ahhh, yeniden k\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 veriyorum, ohhh, her taraf\u0131n\u0131 doldurdu am\u0131m\u0131n, bo\u015f yeri kalmad\u0131, offf, ahhh!”<\/p>\n
– “Al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131n abla, a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 sanki biraz?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet aslan\u0131m, sok ko\u00e7um, ac\u0131madan sik ablan\u0131. Ahhh, ohhhh, \u00e7ok g\u00fczel, offf anam!”<\/p>\n
– “Seni sikmeye bay\u0131l\u0131yorum ablam! Offf, al, al bunu! Nas\u0131l ho\u015funa gidiyor mu b\u00f6yle deli gibi k\u00f6k\u00fcne kadar sokup \u00e7\u0131karmam?”<\/p>\n
– “\u00c7ok g\u00fczel, ahh, \u00e7ok g\u00fczel aslan\u0131m, senin kar\u0131n olmak harika bir \u015fey, alt\u0131na yat\u0131p yara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yemek!”<\/p>\n
– “Offf, al o zaman ablammm!”<\/p>\n
– “Sok aslan\u0131m, art\u0131k buldu\u011fum her f\u0131rsatta kendimi bu yara\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131na ataca\u011f\u0131m, sanki ilk defa sikiliyorum, offf, anamm, offf!”<\/p>\n
Koltukta kendi kendime bo\u015falm\u0131\u015f olmam\u0131n rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan dolay\u0131 uzun s\u00fcredir sikiyordum Hacer ablay\u0131.<\/p>\n
Art\u0131k am\u0131 iyice al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 i\u00e7indeki kal\u0131n k\u00fct\u00fck gibi yara\u011f\u0131ma. Hatta bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 iyice a\u00e7\u0131p kendine \u00e7ekerek am\u0131n\u0131 tamamen sunmu\u015ftu, ta\u015faklar\u0131m g\u00f6t deli\u011fine \u00e7arpana kadar sokabiliyordum.<\/p>\n
Alt\u0131mda ba\u011f\u0131ra \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ra, ahlaya ohlaya, titreyip sars\u0131larak birka\u00e7 defa bo\u015falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Art\u0131k ben de sona yakla\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n
– “Geliyorum abla!”<\/p>\n
– “Gel ko\u00e7um, gel aslan\u0131m, i\u00e7imi d\u00f6lle!”<\/p>\n
– “Ohhh, sular seller gibi geliyorum kar\u0131c\u0131\u011f\u0131m, harikas\u0131n, o senin darac\u0131k s\u0131ms\u0131cak am\u0131na dolduruyorum d\u00f6llerimi!”<\/p>\n
– “Doldur aslan\u0131m benim, ko\u00e7um, ahh, ohhhhmmm, \u00e7ok g\u00fczellll, akt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7imde hissediyorum, offfff!” diye diye tekrar bo\u015falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 benimle birlikte.<\/p>\n
V\u0131c\u0131k v\u0131c\u0131k olmu\u015ftu am\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7i, am sular\u0131yla d\u00f6llerim birbirine kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Dizlerimin \u00fczerinde do\u011frularak i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, amc\u0131\u011f\u0131 ayn\u0131 filmlerdeki kad\u0131nlar\u0131nki gibi a\u00e7\u0131k kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 i\u00e7i g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu am\u0131n\u0131n rahatl\u0131kla. Bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce g\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n
– “\u00dc\u00e7 \u00e7ocuk \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 o amdan, merak etme kendine gelir!”<\/p>\n
– “Harika bir kad\u0131ns\u0131n sen!”<\/p>\n
– “Sen de harika bir adams\u0131n! Ablan\u0131n am\u0131na koydun, da\u011f\u0131tt\u0131n beni!”<\/p>\n
– “Daha dur, bu ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7, hep koyacam!”<\/p>\n
– “Koyars\u0131n istedi\u011fin zaman, kocam de\u011fil misin?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet kar\u0131c\u0131\u011f\u0131m!” Yan\u0131na uzan\u0131p, bir s\u00fcre dinlendikten sonra kalkt\u0131m,<\/p>\n
– “Hadi beraber y\u0131kanal\u0131m!” diyerek elinden tutup banyoya s\u00fcr\u00fckledim.<\/p>\n
Girdik du\u015fun alt\u0131na, kendi elleriyle beni sabunlay\u0131p lifledi, bir g\u00fczel y\u0131kad\u0131. Sonra ben de onu y\u0131karken o bay\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m koca g\u00f6t\u00fcne de iyice bakt\u0131m. Hatta arkas\u0131nda diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcp, g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn yanaklar\u0131n\u0131 iyice ay\u0131rarak g\u00f6t deli\u011fini bile inceledim.<\/p>\n
Bembeyaz g\u00f6t yanaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck pembe bir m\u00fch\u00fcr gibi duruyordu, onu da sikece\u011fimin hayali yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ta\u015f gibi yap\u0131vermi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Ama \u015fimdi yapmayacakt\u0131m, o y\u0131llard\u0131r hayalini kurdu\u011fum g\u00f6t\u00fc burada ayak \u00fcst\u00fc sikemezdim, t\u00f6rensel bir seks olmal\u0131yd\u0131 o i\u015f.<\/p>\n
Onun i\u00e7in am\u0131n\u0131 incelemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Biraz \u00f6yle arkas\u0131ndan bakt\u0131m am\u0131na, sonra ters \u00e7evirip \u00f6nden bakt\u0131m. Etli, dolgun d\u0131\u015f dudaklar\u0131 olan, ortas\u0131 bir \u00e7izgi gibi ve i\u00e7 dudaklar\u0131 \u00e7ok hafif\u00e7e aradan g\u00f6r\u00fcnen yar\u0131m \u015feftali gibi \u00e7\u0131k\u0131k duran bir am\u0131 vard\u0131…<\/p>\n
Sonra kalk\u0131p memelerini inceledim, neredeyse ba\u015f\u0131m gibi irilerdi biraz da sark\u0131k haliyle, ama \u00e7ok tatl\u0131 duruyorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri de t\u00fcm v\u00fccudu gibi bembeyaz, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs halkalar\u0131 s\u00fctl\u00fc kahve renginde olduk\u00e7a geni\u015f, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs u\u00e7lar\u0131 ise kahverengi ve zeytin irili\u011finde.<\/p>\n
Bu arada am\u0131nda ne de g\u00f6t\u00fcnde ya da bacaklar\u0131nda hi\u00e7 k\u0131l t\u00fcy yoktu.<\/p>\n
– “Abla, hep b\u00f6yle t\u00fcys\u00fcz k\u0131ls\u0131z m\u0131 olur buralar?”<\/p>\n
– “Senin \u015fans\u0131na ne g\u00fczel denk geldi de\u011fil mi, kaymak gibi, doktora gidece\u011fim i\u00e7in tertemiz yapt\u0131yd\u0131m g\u00f6r\u00fcmcemgille beraber.”<\/p>\n
– “\u00c7ok g\u00fczel g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor am\u0131n da g\u00f6t deli\u011fin de, ama ben k\u0131ll\u0131 da severim.”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l yani?”<\/p>\n
– “Ne bileyim abla, k\u0131ll\u0131 olmas\u0131 da \u00e7ok tahrik ediyor beni.”<\/p>\n
– “Ba\u015fka zaman da k\u0131ll\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131r\u0131m senin i\u00e7in aslan\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
– “Off abla \u00e7ok tatl\u0131s\u0131n!”<\/p>\n
– “Senin i\u00e7in her \u015feyi yapar\u0131m aslan\u0131m. Hadi \u00e7\u0131kal\u0131m da kurulan\u0131p giyinirken konu\u015furuz. Ben bir g\u00fcn kal\u0131r giderim diye bir \u015fey de almad\u0131yd\u0131m yan\u0131ma, art\u0131k \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 giyece\u011fim.”<\/p>\n
– “Valla s\u00fctyenini giyebilirsin, ama k\u00fclodunu vermem, o benim art\u0131k!”<\/p>\n
– “Ne yapacaks\u0131n k\u00fclodumu, donsuz mu gezeyim s\u0131pa!”<\/p>\n
– “Sen yokken koklar seni anar\u0131m ben onunla! Merak etme donsuz b\u0131rakmam seni, anneminkilerden giyiverirsin.”<\/p>\n
– “Yengem anlarsa?”<\/p>\n
– “Ya ne anlayacak, kad\u0131n saym\u0131yordur her halde k\u00fclotlar\u0131n\u0131!”<\/p>\n
– “Oras\u0131 da \u00f6yle, tamam, hadi bulal\u0131m o zaman bir tane.”<\/p>\n
– “\u015eu \u00e7ekmecelere bak da, birbirine benzeyenlerden birini bul giy i\u015fte, o zaman anlamaz.”<\/p>\n
– “Hah buldum! Yengeme bak sen, onun k\u00fclotlar da hep dantelli falan!”<\/p>\n
– “Babam da ben gibi demek ki, kime \u00e7ekti\u011fim belli oldu!”<\/p>\n
– “E\u015f\u015fek!”<\/p>\n
\u00dczerimizi giyip tekrar salona ge\u00e7ti\u011fimizde saat 23:00’e geliyordu. Sabahtan beri 12-13 saattir sohbetle, sevi\u015fmeyle vaktimiz ge\u00e7mi\u015f zaman\u0131n nas\u0131l akt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k bile.<\/p>\n
– “Midem bay\u0131ld\u0131, biraz bir \u015feyler yiyelim.” deyince, Hacer abla,<\/p>\n
– “Evet, benim de!” dedi ve mutfa\u011fa ge\u00e7tik.<\/p>\n
Hemen pratik\u00e7e dolaptan bir \u015feyler \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p haz\u0131rlamaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, gidip arkas\u0131ndan sar\u0131ld\u0131m. Ellerimi g\u00f6be\u011finde birle\u015ftirip boynunu \u00f6perken, yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 da g\u00f6t\u00fcne dayad\u0131m…<\/p>\n
– “Gene dikilmi\u015f seninki!”<\/p>\n
– “Dayanam\u0131yorum o g\u00fczel g\u00f6t\u00fcne!”<\/p>\n
– “Ya?”<\/p>\n
– “Ya \u00f6yle!”<\/p>\n
– “Ama az rahat ver, bir yerimi kestireceksin.”<\/p>\n
– “Tamam tamam!”<\/p>\n
Sonra biraz at\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131p salona ge\u00e7tik. \u00dc\u00e7l\u00fc koltu\u011fun s\u0131rt minderlerini \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p att\u0131m. S\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131 arkal\u0131\u011fa dayay\u0131p yan yatarak, Hacer ablay\u0131 da \u00f6n\u00fcme ald\u0131m. Dizlerini k\u0131r\u0131p iri g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc kas\u0131klar\u0131ma yaslayarak tam yerle\u015fti kuca\u011f\u0131ma.<\/p>\n
Bo\u015fta kalan elimi \u00fcstten uzatarak hafif hafif ok\u015famaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Pijamas\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na sokup s\u00fctyensiz memelerini elliyordum. Zeytin gibi u\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131p b\u0131rak\u0131yor, hafif\u00e7e \u00e7eki\u015ftiriyordum.<\/p>\n
Konu\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m zaman ise boynunu ensesini nefesimi vererek \u00f6p\u00fcyordum minik minik… Hacer ablan\u0131n ho\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131 her halinden belliydi, kendini bana bast\u0131rarak k\u0131vran\u0131yordu \u00f6n\u00fcmde. Ama gene de sohbete vakit buluyorduk.<\/p>\n
– “Abla, kim kim ald\u0131n\u0131z t\u00fcyleri?”<\/p>\n
– “G\u00f6r\u00fcmcem Fikriye, bir de benim Seda.”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l yapt\u0131n\u0131z peki?”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l olacak o\u011flum, a\u011fdayla. Bacaklara jilet vurulursa sertle\u015fir g\u00fcrle\u015fir k\u0131llar. E\u011fer bacaklar al\u0131nmayacaksa, tek am olacaksa, o zaman jiletle yapar\u0131m ben.”<\/p>\n
– “H\u0131mm, peki hanginizde daha \u00e7ok k\u0131l var abla?”<\/p>\n
– “Seda’yla benim bacaklar\u0131m\u0131zda s\u0131k de\u011fil, amlar\u0131m\u0131zda ve g\u00f6t\u00fcm\u00fczdekiler biraz s\u0131k, ama Fikriye’nin bacaklar da am\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fc de \u00e7ok s\u0131k k\u0131ll\u0131, simsiyah k\u0131llar\u0131 zaten.”<\/p>\n
– “Merak ettim \u015fimdi valla, g\u00f6rmek isterdim \u00f6yle k\u0131ll\u0131 nas\u0131l g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc.”<\/p>\n
– “Sap\u0131k! O\u011flum, Fikriye’nin k\u0131llar varken am\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6remezsin zaten, o derece k\u0131ll\u0131 yani! Seda’n\u0131nkiler ise ayn\u0131 benimkiler gibi.”<\/p>\n
– “Seninkileri de k\u0131ll\u0131 g\u00f6remedim ki daha!”<\/p>\n
– “Uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m zaman g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn art\u0131k!”<\/p>\n
– “Peki, a\u011fda partilerinde \u00f6yle seks i\u015flerini falan konu\u015fuyor musunuz?”<\/p>\n
– “Evet, konu\u015furuz tabi.”<\/p>\n
– “Anlatsana, neler konu\u015fuyorsunuz mesela?”<\/p>\n
– “Ba\u015fka kar\u0131lar\u0131 da m\u0131 merak ediyorsun?”<\/p>\n
– “H\u0131 h\u0131, k\u0131z\u0131yor musun?”<\/p>\n
– “Yok aslan\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn kar\u0131lar feda olsun sana\u2026 Ama beni unutup bo\u015flarsan o zaman oyar\u0131m g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc!”<\/p>\n
– “Sen benim ilk g\u00f6z a\u011fr\u0131ms\u0131n, ilk a\u015fk\u0131ms\u0131n!”<\/p>\n
– “Aslan\u0131m benim! Bu Fikriye’nin am\u0131nda yang\u0131n var mesela bu aralar, bunun kocas\u0131 Libya’da ya!”<\/p>\n
– “\u00c7ok mu iyi sikiyormu\u015f ki kocas\u0131 burada oldu\u011funda?”<\/p>\n
– “Yok be o\u011flum, iyi sikmesinden ziyade, sikiyor i\u015fte, hi\u00e7 olmamas\u0131ndan iyi anlam\u0131nda, kar\u0131 zilli zaten, hep a\u00e7!”<\/p>\n
– “Nas\u0131l konu\u015fuyorsunuz peki bunlar\u0131, b\u00f6yle a\u00e7\u0131k a\u00e7\u0131k m\u0131?”<\/p>\n
– “He ya a\u00e7\u0131k a\u00e7\u0131k, b\u00f6yle senle konu\u015ftu\u011fumuz gibi.”<\/p>\n
– “Mesela?”<\/p>\n
– “Bu son sefer kas\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 am\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131rken bizim elimizin de\u011fmesinden bile g\u00f6zleri kay\u0131yor Seda’n\u0131n, halas\u0131 da, ne o k\u0131z, vakit geldi art\u0131k da yarak m\u0131 ar\u0131yorsun deyiverdi!”<\/p>\n
– “Ee, Seda bir \u015fey demedi mi?”<\/p>\n
– “Yok, g\u00fcl\u00fcp ge\u00e7tik. Sonra bu Fikriye’nin am\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc al\u0131rken, Fikriye, adam da gelemedi Libya’dan, yan\u0131yorum deyince, bizim Seda da tuttu, halac\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00f6yle yan\u0131yorsan bul birini ver bari, eni\u015ftem daha gelmez diyerek \u00f6c\u00fcn\u00fc ald\u0131!”<\/p>\n
– “Bak sen Seda’ma! Eee, Fikriye ne dedi?”<\/p>\n
– “Fikriye, orospu muyum ben k\u0131z zilli deyince, Seda da kimse bilmezse orospu olmazs\u0131n halac\u0131\u011f\u0131m dedi!”<\/p>\n
– “Siz ne dediniz peki?”<\/p>\n
– “Ben sus k\u0131z zilli dedim. Fikriye de, sen \u00f6yle mi yap\u0131yorsun yoksa zilli dedi. Sonra g\u00fclmekten \u00f6ld\u00fck!”<\/p>\n
– “Her \u015fakan\u0131n alt\u0131nda bir ger\u00e7ek yatar derler abla, harbiden bir haltlar \u00e7eviriyor olmas\u0131n bu Seda?”<\/p>\n
– “Valla ne bileyim Hasan\u0131m, g\u00f6t g\u00f6bek de belli i\u015fte art\u0131k biliyorsun, memeler g\u00f6t falan bana \u00e7ekmi\u015f. Ya\u015f\u0131 oldu 16, o ya\u015fta ben yara\u011f\u0131 yemi\u015ftim. Bir halt yiyorsa bile evlendirmeden k\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 falan bozdurmasa bari.”<\/p>\n
– “K\u0131llar\u0131 falan al\u0131rken bir baksayd\u0131n abla iyice am\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcne, yarak yemi\u015fse iyi k\u00f6t\u00fc belli olurdu.”<\/p>\n
– “Ya asl\u0131nda bakmad\u0131m de\u011fil, Fikriye’ye falan belli etmemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum, belli olmaz abisine falan s\u00f6yler, k\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 belaya sokar. En son bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda am\u0131nda bir \u015fey yok gibi, ellenmemi\u015f gibi duruyor, ama g\u00f6t deli\u011fi sanki biraz bozulmu\u015f gibi geldi bana.”<\/p>\n
– “Ba\u015fba\u015fa oldu\u011funuz bir zaman sorguya \u00e7ekseydin ke\u015fke.”<\/p>\n
– “\u00c7ekmez miyim, ama a\u00e7\u0131k vermiyor. Bu arada\u2026 Seda’n\u0131n am\u0131ndan g\u00f6t\u00fcnden bahsederken arkamdaki yarak daha bir hevesli de\u011fiyor sanki g\u00f6t\u00fcme!”<\/p>\n
– “Yok be abla!”<\/p>\n
– “Hadi hadi, ablan\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131na da m\u0131 kalk\u0131yor senin sikin s\u0131pa!”<\/p>\n
– “Ablas\u0131na siki kalkan adam\u0131n onun k\u0131z\u0131na siki kalkmas\u0131 normal de\u011fil mi?”<\/p>\n
– “K\u0131z\u0131na kald\u0131r\u0131p anas\u0131na dayad\u0131m diyorsun yani!”<\/p>\n
– “\u0130lahi abla, alemsin! K\u0131z\u0131yor musun Seda hakk\u0131nda konu\u015fmama?”<\/p>\n
– “Yok o\u011flum niye k\u0131zay\u0131m, sizin aran\u0131zda baya mesafe var, nikah bile d\u00fc\u015fer!”<\/p>\n
– “Ya k\u00f6ye geldi\u011fimde Seda’y\u0131 benim sikti\u011fimi \u00f6\u011frenseydin?”<\/p>\n
– “Elalemin adamlar\u0131na siktirece\u011fine sana siktirsin aslan\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
– “Cidden mi?”<\/p>\n
– “\u00c7ok istiyorsan yap aslan\u0131m, ama k\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bozma sak\u0131n, evlenirken rezil olmayal\u0131m elaleme!”<\/p>\n
– “Yok olur mu \u00f6yle \u015fey, bozmam tabi ki, ama benimkiyle arkadan da yapamam ki zaten!”<\/p>\n
– “Anlar\u0131z, ben alabiliyorsam g\u00f6t\u00fcme o da al\u0131r kesin, benim kadar g\u00f6t var zillide!”<\/p>\n
– “Alemsin abla, oras\u0131 da do\u011fru! Akl\u0131ma kurt d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcn ama…”<\/p>\n
– “Bir zaman dene aslan\u0131m, hem \u00f6n tarafta bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da konu\u015fturup \u00e7\u00f6zersin!”<\/p>\n
– “Tamam abla, bakar\u0131z bir ara, sen kederlenme, \u00f6n taraf\u0131 bozdurduysa bile art\u0131k eskisi gibi de\u011fil, onun da \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc var, diktiririz olur biter.”<\/p>\n
– “Ger\u00e7ekten mi, var m\u0131 \u00f6yle \u00e7are?”<\/p>\n
– “Var tabii abla, d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden bir s\u00fcre \u00f6nce dikiyorlar, gerdek gecesi yeniden y\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131yor!”<\/p>\n
– “Vay anam vay. Gene de bizim Seda zillisi duymas\u0131n, amdan g\u00f6tten verir durur!”<\/p>\n
– “Tabi ki, ona s\u00f6yler miyim ablam! Abla k\u0131z\u2026”<\/p>\n
– “Efendim can\u0131m\u2026 S\u00f6yle\u2026”<\/p>\n
– “Seda ile bana nikah d\u00fc\u015fer dedin ya\u2026”<\/p>\n
– “Evet\u2026 \u00d6yle\u2026 O kadar yak\u0131n akraba de\u011filiz ki\u2026”<\/p>\n
– “Belki diyorum. Senin Seda’y\u0131 isterim senden\u2026 Verir misin k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 bana?”<\/p>\n
– “Bak sen k\u00f6ftehora hele\u2026 Senden iyisini mi bulucam ulan? Yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131l\u0131k desen var, erkeklik desen var, yarak desen var. Verdim gitti.”<\/p>\n
Hacer Abla (2), resim \u21162
\n– “Off\u2026 Helal sana ablam\u2026 Sak\u0131n k\u00f6rpe k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 bulunca seni unuturum diye korkma\u2026 K\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 da sikerim, seni de sikerim arada\u2026 Merak etme sen\u2026 \u0130kinizi \u00fcst \u00fcste koyar \u00f6yle sikerim sizi\u2026”<\/p>\n
– “Sap\u0131k herif\u2026 Anal\u0131 k\u0131zl\u0131 sikeceksin bizi ha? Ee? Damat? Sikerim diyorsun ama\u2026 Sana k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 veriyorum sikmen i\u00e7in, ama beni hala sikmedin damad\u0131m\u2026 Hadi art\u0131k, koy \u015fu yara\u011f\u0131 da bayram yaps\u0131n amc\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u2026 Hadii\u2026”<\/p>\n
B\u00fct\u00fcn bu muhabbetler olurken Hacer ablan\u0131n memelerinden am\u0131na kaym\u0131\u015f elim ok\u015fay\u0131p parmaklayarak v\u0131c\u0131k v\u0131c\u0131k etmi\u015f, sonra da pijamas\u0131yla k\u00fclodunu s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131p t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fckledi\u011fim yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 iri bembeyaz yuvarlak g\u00f6t yanaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na s\u00fcrterken birka\u00e7 defa bo\u015faltm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m onu.<\/p>\n
– “Hadi art\u0131k i\u00e7imde istiyorum!” diye yalvar\u0131r bir hale gelmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Hacer ablay\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p tekrar yata\u011f\u0131ma g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Ayaktayken soydum \u00fczerinde ne varsa. Bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da kendim de soyunup, Hacer ablay\u0131 yata\u011f\u0131ma s\u0131rt \u00fcst\u00fc yat\u0131r\u0131p \u00fczerine \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn ilkleri ya\u015fas\u0131n istiyordum, dudaklar\u0131na yumuldum hemen, \u00f6p\u00fcp emerken s\u0131ms\u0131cak am\u0131na s\u00fcrt\u00fcyordum k\u00fct\u00fck gibi kal\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131. Yava\u015f yava\u015f a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya kaymaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131m gibi iri memelerinin her taraf\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcp yalad\u0131m \u00f6nce, sonra zeytin gibi meme u\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 tek tek a\u011fz\u0131ma al\u0131p emmeye minik minik \u0131s\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Hacer abla ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131, ensemi ok\u015fay\u0131p inliyordu, memelerinden bile \u00e7ok zevk ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 belli olmu\u015ftu…<\/p>\n
\u0130yice a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya kay\u0131p ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bacak aras\u0131na g\u00f6merek, etli am dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 yalamaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131p,<\/p>\n
– “Yapma!” diyerek inliyordu.<\/p>\n
Yalay\u0131p emdik\u00e7e, dilimi etli ama dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na soktuk\u00e7a titremeleri artt\u0131, kas\u0131lmalar\u0131n\u0131 kontrol edemez bir hal ald\u0131 ve sonunda ahlamalar ohlamalar e\u015fli\u011finde sular\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131ma ak\u0131tarak bo\u015fald\u0131. Bir s\u00fcre elleri ba\u015f\u0131mdayken bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n istemsiz kas\u0131lmalar\u0131 devam etti.<\/p>\n
Ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bacak aras\u0131nda dizlerimin \u00fczerinde do\u011frularak, dibinden tuttu\u011fum kal\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sulu amc\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n etli dudaklar\u0131 aras\u0131na yerle\u015ftirip ittirmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda,<\/p>\n
– “Ahhh Hasan\u0131m, aslan\u0131m, bitiriyorsun beni, sok hadi, sok i\u00e7ime, offf bu ne, ahhh!” diye inlemeleri ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Yine zorlanarak santim santim sokmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m i\u00e7ine. Kal\u0131n yara\u011f\u0131m etli am dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 yararak bir s\u00fcre sonra tamamen i\u00e7ine girdi\u011finde derin bir ohhhh y\u00fckseldi Hacer ablan\u0131n dudaklar\u0131ndan. Bense \u00f6nce a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r sonra h\u0131zlanarak gidip gelmelere ba\u015flad\u0131m cay\u0131r cay\u0131r yanan bana darac\u0131k gelen am\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde…<\/p>\n
Art\u0131k ikimizin inlemeleri birbirine kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, ahlar ohlar aras\u0131nda belki 15 dakika siktim am\u0131n\u0131. En sonunda birka\u00e7 h\u0131zl\u0131 ve sert darbe ile k\u00f6k\u00fcne kadar sokup f\u0131\u015fk\u0131rtt\u0131m yeniden d\u00f6llerimi i\u00e7ine.<\/p>\n
Yara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131karmadan uzand\u0131m \u00fczerine. Yara\u011f\u0131m kendili\u011finden k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcp \u00e7\u0131kana kadar \u00f6p\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck, kokla\u015ft\u0131k. Sonra yan\u0131na kayarak kendimi b\u0131rakt\u0131m yata\u011fa…<\/p>\n
– “Hasan\u0131m, \u00e7ok g\u00fczeldi aslan\u0131m, sanki ben hi\u00e7 sikilmemi\u015fim bug\u00fcne kadar!”<\/p>\n
– “Sen de \u00e7ok harikas\u0131n abla, ben de sana bay\u0131ld\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
– “Bundan sonra hep sana aitim ko\u00e7um, buldu\u011fun her f\u0131rsatta sikersin beni!”<\/p>\n
– “Evet benim g\u00fczel ablam! Sen ne zaman can\u0131n isterse s\u00f6yle bana yeter. Her zaman her istedi\u011finde sikerim seni\u2026”<\/p>\n
– “Bitirdin beni aslan\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
– “Daha dur bakal\u0131m abla, g\u00f6t\u00fcn var s\u0131rada!”<\/p>\n
– “Ona da yar\u0131n koy kuzum, o da senin!”<\/p>\n
– “Tamam o zaman ablam, seni daha fazla yormayay\u0131m bu gece!”<\/p>\n
– “Senin kuca\u011f\u0131nda uyuyay\u0131m art\u0131k aslan damad\u0131m!”<\/p>\n
– “Uyu g\u00fczelim! Uyu benim kad\u0131n\u0131m! M\u00fcstakbel kaynanam benim\u2026 Uyu\u2026”<\/p>\n
O yorgunlukla ba\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yast\u0131\u011fa koyar koymaz uyumu\u015fuz.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Babamlar her yaz oldu\u011fu gibi karde\u015fimi de alarak k\u00f6ye gitmi\u015fler, ben ise birka\u00e7 dersten b\u00fct\u00fcnleme s\u0131navlar\u0131m olmas\u0131 sebebiyle \u015fehirdeki evimizde …<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[36],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-768","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-seks-hikayeleri"],"yoast_head":"\n